lost once agn.

dun know if u could really understand wat i said. bt anyway sometimes
'qi wang yue gao, shi wang yue da'
so sometimes it may be gd nt to have high hopes, so small little things cn give u much surprise n happiness, isn't it?
its nt so simple as wat i tot in the beginning. or am i askin too much? or maybe i'm just too difficult to satisfy.
received a call from sgh today, they ask if we could start work in end of march instead. bt tis is like so 'fast', in less than one mth i'm gonna really be a 'staff nurse'. omg, i'm nt prepared. i'm nt prepared to take up the responsibilities of a staff nurse yet. its nt so simple as to go work, shower pts n clean their buttocks. there r much more things to handle.
i seems to be lost once agn.
i've nt enjoyed my holi yet. i've been busy with lots of things. i've nt catch up with my frens yet. i've nt been out of sg, even for a short short vacation. all my holi trips plans turned out unsuccessful,
sad.
all of a sudden, i feel like runing away, disappear for awhile to think, to figure out, to sort things out.